Tuesday, August 25, 2015

F E T

Time is flying by. 
Yesterday I started my Estrace 
I also switched my diet up to 100% clean 
by 2pm my head was throbbing. 
I was also mildly bitchy 
and I felt super irritated. 
I got home around 5 and napped till 7
Scott called to tell me he would be working later
when I hung up the phone I cried. 
He often works overtime so I'm not sure 
why I was crying. In that moment I just missed him.
When he got home I cried again. 
is it possible for Estrace to dump it's shit 
side effects on you so quickly?
Anyways he asked why I was crying 
to which I had no real reason but blurted out..
Debbie called our embryo a "he" today
then I cried harder. 
He said why are you crying?! will you be upset if its a boy!? 
to which I quickly replied NO NO NO that is not why I am upset! 
I'm upset because I didn't want to know the sex!
I then told him the rest of the story and how 
she said he then quickly said or she...
and after I told the whole story out loud 
I realized that I sounded insane.
Scott began laughing and said welp there's still a 50/50 chance then! 
At least I can mark day one off the calendar and hope 
that day two is better! 
15 more sleeps till our transfer!!
AHHHHHHHH!







Monday, August 3, 2015

Time To Pop Bottles and Dance On Tables!


This past weekend was 
one of my best friends bachelorette party
Hosted by me and Jillian :) 
We had so. much. fun.

We rented a couple of hotel rooms in downtown Newport, KY 
we all met down there around 4pm 
and got ready together, we did a little pre gaming 
then headed to Cincinnati for dinner and dancing! 

The "Theme" was gatsby I glittered everything I could find
and made headbands for each of the girls :)

Jenn Jillian and me :)

The Bride to be! 

So much fun~!


I'm proud to say everyone stuck together 
no one got roofied and we didn't lose the bride!! 
Just 5 days now until the wedding!! 




Monday, July 27, 2015

One is all we need

I just received the call! 
ONE HEALTHY NORMAL EMBRYO!!!

I should have updated sooner with the results of the 
five day check which turned into the 6 day check. 
On Day 6 I got the call that 2 of our 5 embryos 
had made it to blast and were able to be biopsied and frozen! 
I was petrified sending 2 embryos for PGD testing. 
The Genetic testing odds are crazy. 
Most people get back 1 to 3 normal embryos. 
but most people send more than TWO! 
But that's what we had so that is what we sent!
and I praise god for ONE normal embryo!!!
I asked not to know the gender at this time
for a couple reasons. One I was on the phone 
and I wanted Scott to be with me when we found out. 
and Two there aren't many surprises left in life 
and after everything we have gone through to get here 
I feel like we deserve a surprise.
Now I'm not sure how long we will wait because 
Scott is super antsy and wants to know right away! 
We will figure it out when the time is right! 
So where do we go from here?
Well I start birth control today which I will take for 3 weeks
then around August 17th I will start Estrogen and have a scan 
then two weeks later I start progesterone and have another scan
Then sometime around September 9th-12th we will have our transfer!!

Thank you so much to everyone that sent messages emails and texts
your love, support and prayers mean the world to us!! 

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Friday, July 17, 2015

FIVE!!!



Five!! Five eggs made it to fertilization!! 
Pray pray pray they all make it
To day 5!!
Five just might be my new lucky number!! 


Thursday, July 16, 2015

Yes I wore Heels To My Egg Retrieval!

This morning was our Egg Retrieval!
I woke up super early 
and straightened my hair 
put on my favorite black top paired with some 
pearls and my new favorite black heels :) 
Feeling pretty always puts me in a better mood 
and I wanted to be in the best mood possible today! 



We arrived a little early to finish up some paperwork 
and pay for the anesthesiologist 
We waited for about thirty minutes before being called back.
It was crazy to walk through the back of the office 
and into a whole new world! We were taken to recovery 
where I changed into my gown and got hooked up to 
my IV and blood pressure cuff.

Shortly after the anesthesiologist came in to go
over a few things and off we went into the retrieval room!
It was a little creepy at first, a dim lit room with lots 
of silver shinny stuff and a gyno bed with huge 
black holsters for your thighs! 
two nurses talked to me while 
the anesthesiologist got me all hooked up 
a few minutes later the dr came in 
and asked one of the nurses to come with him, 
I waited for what seemed like an hour 
with my legs strapped to the bed and 
the annoying oxygen tubes in my nose.
When they finally came back she reassured me 
that the hold up had nothing to do with me 
and that we would get started soon!! 
The embryologist rolled in the giant machine 
and verified that my dishes matched my name and number. 
once everything was verified the 
anesthesiologist said it was time for the sleepy drugs, 
a little nose tingle and then I remember nothing. 

I woke up what seemed like 5 minutes later in the recovery room. 
I just felt sore, and groggy. 
I didn't even say anything crazy! 
The girl that came out before I went back was 
talking about buffalo chicken dip and make up???
I think that scared me into silence! 

Dr. G came in about 10 minutes later to 
let me know he retrieved 8 eggs and that 
my breathing started to diminish and the 
anesthesiologist made them stop where they were 
to wake me up. He never got to the left ovary.
I'm okay with that though I would rather be 
breathing than have a few more eggs!

We were the last surgery of the day 
and had the whole recovery room to our selves 
we were waiting for the embryologist 
to let us know that the ICSI had been completed 
and that we could leave, In the mean time 
our nurse came back and told us Dr. G's 
wife and one of my favorite nurses wanted to serve us lunch!
They had Honey Baked Ham delivered 
and brought us back sandwiches, potato salad, fruit and cookies!

Once we got the all clear I headed with my mom 
to my parents house and Scott headed into work
I took a much need long nap and 
lounged around for most of the day!
My pain is pretty much gone at this point 
and I'm just anxious to hear tomorrows report!!!
Here are so more pics from today!! 










 Here are a couple photos from my egg shoot with my mom
how weird is it that she just so happened to 
hard boil 8 eggs yesterday!!! WEIRD!!




hahah just a little photo shoot humor :)

If your into drinking games, take a shot every time 
I said anesthesiologist :) 

Until tomorrow! 
XOXO



Monday, July 13, 2015

IVf... E2 RESULTS, FOLLICLES & FEELINGS

July 13th 2015

Day 3 E2  155
Day 5 E2 508
Day 7 E2 1058
Day 9 E2 1757

Follicle scan today showed 25 follicles 
most measuring 14mm to 17mm 
Another ultrasound a lab is set for tomorrow 
and it is looking like our retrieval will be
Thursday July 16th 2015! 

Feelings: 
So far (knock on wood) I've felt pretty good! 
around day 5 I started using a heating pad which seems 
to be helping quite a bit. 
I would describe the full ovary pain like a runners cramp 
just a constant pain in your side. 
I read somewhere yesterday that 
when your follicles are around 18mm they 
are the size of green grapes... 
So all I can picture now are a bunch of grapes 
hanging out in my pelvis. 
My right side is still the leader with 16 follies! 
I feel good about these numbers. 
I know this is a banking / freeze all cycle 
and I'm doing a pretty good job of not obsessing 
over everything, like how many I have 
how big they are, what the averages are, 
how big their supposed to be..ect.. 
I'm just kind of "going with the flow" 
Day 9 I started to feel a little like I could cry on command. 
or at something as stupid as a tide commercial. 
but I feel like those emotions come and go. 
I definitely don't feel crazy like I did that one time 
I took 250mg of clomid in one month %-O

I'm planning to take Wednesday off work to relax 
before Thursday. 
Then Thursday Scott and I will go in together 
and about an hour later my mom will meet us there. 
The procedure should take about 15-20 minutes 
and then an hour plus in recovery.
After that I will be going to my parents to sleep 
while Scott heads back to work. 
I also took Friday off to just chill and make sure 
my body is fully recovered. 
I will also be taking a medication to prevent OHSS 
Dr. G said before he started using this med, 
he would have 2 or more cases of OHSS a month
now that he has it on bored he hasn't had a case in 2 years!

Science is pretty freaking cool. 

I'll try and update tomorrow too and then 
I'll be back on Thursday or Friday to let you know 
how many eggs were retrieved! :) 



Wednesday, July 8, 2015

IVF....

June 27th 2015
I took my first injection for IVF!
The timing worked out perfectly somehow. 
Let me back track a bit. 
At the end of April when our 5th IUI failed
we had decided enough was enough 
we were ready to move on. 
We talked with the Dr. and tossed around 
July for a start time for IVF. 
We had also agreed we would be doing 
IVF with PGD and ICSI. 
The month of May we took it easy, 
not really thinking about anything ttc related.
Scott and I had a few discussions on
the timing of everything, if we really wanted to start 
in July...If we wanted to wait..If we wanted to 
just do it now and quit waiting. 
Somewhere around June 18th
I got a call from the RE. 
It was one of my favorite nurses! 
She was calling to make sure we were 
going to make it in that week for our routine blood drawl. 
When I told her about our discussions with waiting until fall 
she informed me that we were already on the schedule!
everything was set, ready and in place for us to begin! 
There was no turning back now...
June 23rd 2015 we went in for our BW and my baseline 
ultrasound. Everything was cleared and I was given 
my schedule, my instructions for our embryo tank 
and was told to wait for the call to pay for my meds. 
It all happened so fast! 
I had no time to be nervous 
I had no time to second guess anything.
The next day I woke up to the Fed Ex guy 
banging on my door with a box containing my future. 
We were set to leave for Florida that up coming Thurday night
so I seperated what I needed to take and continued on 
getting myself ready for vacation. 
No thinking, No worrying, No freak out OMG I'm doing IVF moments. 
Perfection. 
Pure Perfection. 
I couldn't have asked for better timing. 

We arrived in Florida Friday night after a long ass car ride. 
Saturday morning after we settled in the hotel 
I got out my Lupron and gave myself my first 
IVF injection. It was cake. 
The next few days were some of the best most 
relaxing, zen moments of my life. 

The thing about out yearly Florida trip is 
Twice now I have been down there pregnant. 
and Twice left miscarrying our babies. 
I don't know what it is, but I made 
sure that this trip would be completely different. 
No trips to the ER
No heartbreak. 

I'm happy to say I succeeded in making it 
the perfect trip. 
Back to the zen...
for the first 5 days down there 
I woke up at 6am every morning. 
I didn't set an alarm I just woke up. 
I went out to pool and watched the sun come up 
just me. and my thoughts. 
in silence. 
After the sun filled the sky 
I floated around in the pool listening to the 
waves and the waterfall and the the birds 
I made shapes out of the clouds and 
cleared my mind of everything. 
I was in total peace. 

On July 5th 
Scott and I sat together and mixed up 
my first day of stims 
It went much more smoothly than I could have 
ever imagined. 
I'd read so much about the "burn" 
and the giant needle. 
But in reality.. 
It didn't burn. Not even a little bit! 
and the needle? Tiny compared to what my mind had perceived. 

It's now July 8th and I'm on my 4th day of stims! 
My E2 on day 3 came back at 155
so I am continuing on the same dose until 
my next set of labs and ultrasound on Thursday!

As of today we don't have an exact date 
for our egg retrieval but we know it will 
be sometime next week. 
It dawned on me today 
that next week we will have embryos, babies. 
babies. next week we will have tiny little balls of cells that 
will be our babies!
So crazy! 

I'm so thankful to everyone who has helped 
and continues to help us through this process. 
Love and Support is really what gets you by. 

I'll leave you with some pictures!!



a clip from our mixing video...concentrating real hard!



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