I read my last post and laughed.
The hope I always hold month after month..
Ohhhh Ahhh EWCM this will be the month!
I'm in a weird place right now.
I'm in limbo,
I was set and ready to start IVF in March
I have talked with the Nurses and the plan is a go.
But now I'm second guessing my choices.
I hate this office.
I just took a minute to read back
through my blog and turns out I've hated them
since 2012...Its 2015...
what the hell is wrong with me?
Why have I stuck around so long?
I know why. It's because I'm fearful
of starting over with a new RE..
I HATE going to new doctors..
I HATE going over every shitty situation that has
occurred in the last 5 year...
I just don't want to do it.
But on the other hand. I want a baby.
I want to make my husband a father
and my parents and in laws grandparents...
I tell myself it comes down to how
bad do you want it.
I posted a long post on my TTC_Babywarrick IG account
you are welcome to read...
But to sum it up.
I am going to see my OB on moday..
I trust him,
I am comfortable with him.
and after my last miscarriage he promised to
help me in any way he could.
I value his opinion..
and in my opinion he helped me get pregnant
this last time..after 6 short months of seeing him...
Dr. B on the other hand...
3 years...a million ultrasounds,
3 IUI's injections and so on
and nothing...not one single BFP..
That has to speak volumes..
and now im ready to listen.
I will update after my appointment Monday
if there is anyone out there that still reads this..
and you're the praying type send one up for us..